Success

Success. What does it really mean? 

I've been thinking a lot about what it means lately. Manly I think because I it is something that I seek. I want to look back at my life and feel like it was successful. 

Life in the Fair household has been a bit on the crazy side, Weddings and photoshoots on the weekends, full time jobs during the week, and then hours of editing on weeknights. Occasionally I have to actually schedule time off for us. Mark a big X on the calendar so that I don't schedule something.

Because of the way my mind works, I automatically link my success to weather of not I do my job well. And I have high standards. I can not think of a photo shoot or design item I've done that after I felt completely satisfied, I want to strive to do more/better/greater/more creative. But that's a whole other issue. But what I mean by that, I get very focused on doing those things well, that I fear that I will let things in my personal life slip. Things that I feel are important to be successful at. Like my marriage, friendships, sleeping...

So to be better at these things, I think it means cutting or consolidating some things so that I have more time to be successful at things like being a good wife/friend/sister/daughter. 

And if you haven't figured it out by my lack of posts the past few months, the personal blog is something that I've decided that I can no longer be successful at, so I've decided to go down to just one blog. The one that is attached to my photography website, www.elyfairphotos.com/blog. I'm going to try to keep up with some personal stuff on there, too.

I know this all sounds so melodramatic, like I'm dropping off the face of the earth. I think I just needed there to be a little closure and finality. I hope that you will stick with me and continue to follow me on the Pro-personal blog.